What is emotional attachment? Is it just some chemical programming in my brain? Can I turn it off? How can I turn it off?! If I could just turn it off, would I? Should I?
Perhaps emotional attachment is like gravity–a force of nature that (apparently) can’t be defied.
When two people get involved to a deep enough degree, what happens? What physical, mental, emotional, and/or spiritual processes occur? Is there a connection created in some dimension that we can’t see? Why does it hurt to break apart? Why the fuck should I care what you say or do?
But I do. I can’t deny that. I imagine invisible strands binding me. Bound by love, unexpressed thoughts and feelings, unanswered questions. Why can’t I kick this attachment? How do I detach? How do I get free from it?
Why does anything hurt? What is the point of this pain? There is no satisfying answer that I can find or that I’ve heard. Just “Buck up! It’s all gonna be OK. Just give it some time.” Fuck these platitudes. There’s no answer in them. Fuck time. There’s never time, ’cause we gotta work and be cool and implement our schemes.
Emotional attachment just overcomes you. First it is lust and a connection… then a friendship and bond, and then the emotional attachment/ being in love. Being in love is so great, but then logic and awareness kicks in and you realize it cannot last… then the detachment and pain. It is like a death, because the one person you now feel so connected with has gone and is no longer in your life. They have taken that love and attachment and are looking to give it to someone else eventually. Your heart breaks and aches. You really feel like you are having an anxiety attack, maybe even a heart attack, but then you know that it is just heartbreak. It is the kind of heartbreak that writers, poets, song writers, and philosophers talk about/ It is the reason man is so cynical and relies only on logic and nothing more…. because emotional attachment has no control. Love can come and go and owes you nothing, not even an explanation why it came and left you. it just is, and it is something you have to accept. And if you remain cynical, love will not come knocking on your door. is that a good thing. Can you handle if it leaves again?